Right now it is 3am on Sunday morning. I have no damn idea where this blog post is going to go or what the hell I am even going to say to be honest for right now. I am a little high as a kite on pain medication, in a shit load of pain, stressed out big time and also a tad bit high on caffeine as well. So let’s just see where this takes us and what trouble I can get myself in for speaking the truth, as is usually the case when I am like this.
At the moment of beginning to write this post I don’t even have a damn title of what I am calling it, I suppose I will think of something a bit later when I see where this post is actually heading and what I say. So let’s start with some of my normal basic updates, shall we?
How is my health at the moment?
Well, there is one word to describe my health and that is “fucked“. There is still so much going on with my leg and soon I have to have another bone scan. And I am seriously hoping like all fuck that the infection inside the bone hasn’t spread. If it has then I am in a shit load of drama.
This coming Tuesday I have to have an ultrasound as it has been recently found out, only just last week in fact, that I have a hernia. We have no idea really how big it is. It can be seen a bit from just looking at my stomach, but the big part is how big it is inside my stomach. This we will find out next week. So this is now another health issue to add to the list that is constantly getting fucking longer and longer by the week.
The pain from my leg is still so damn strong and at times so bad where I need to still take a double dose of pain medications within a couple of hours of each other. Not that I really like doing that, unless I really have too. Which is limited to what I feel like I would like to do at times.
On Friday last week, I got my new glasses through. And they are totally amazing and making a hell of a difference in front of the computer, which is the main time I need to use them. I have 2 pairs. One of a professional-looking metal frame pair and the colour is a bluey purple coloured plastic frame. Both are for exactly the same thing. It is just that under my Disability Pension I can get 2 sets of glasses-free every 2 years unless my eyesight changes big time. So it is better to get 2 pairs than just get 1 pair in case something happens to one of the pairs. For example, if I break a pair or I want a change for a bit in wearing them.
How is the HWS going?
Right now HWS is going slowly and I am happy with that. With everything else that is going on, I need to take things a little slowly. But I do need to get myself back into some sort of routine with regular work hours, personal outings as well as my RDOs (Rostered Day Offs) as well as a few other things that are now happening every week.
Yesterday everything was finished by moving all my website, including HWS to a VPS (Virtual Private Server). This gives me total control over all my sites and full admin access to my backend which is what I need. I just never thought I would see the day come around that I would be running my own sites through my own VPS. I have hired someone to manage the VPS for more for updates, things that I don’t understand (and when that comes to a VPS that is a lot), but it is something I am wanting to learn over time. Just not right now. Also, the person who is managing my VPS I have known for a very long time, have a lot of trust in, is someone I know will never screw me over and is also someone who to me is more like a little brother than a long time friend.
How are things for me on the home front?
Jeez, where do I really start with this one? I am still waiting for my forever home to come up. But we don’t want to rush them as it will make them offer me a shitty place in a place that is really not suited to what my actual needs are. So, for now, we continue to wait. But, I also don’t have to worry because I am still in this unit provided by Coast Shelter until such time as my forever home finally comes up.
The delay is the fact that they can only offer me a certain type of place due to medical and mental health issues. This includes, due to issues with climbing stairs due to my leg, I have to be a ground floor unit. Also, I have to be in a small complex with decent people so I don’t have a relapse as I have been clean from any kind of illegal drug use for so many years now and I intend on keeping it that way. Even though I am on the priority housing list and it was backdated until April 2018 it is just a matter of them now finding the right type of property to make sure I will have a home for the rest of my days on this earth.
But to be honest, I am beginning to get a little frustrated, but today (9th Feb 2020) now marks 21 months that I have not been homeless and been in this unit. Which for me are a massive milestone and I can’t believe I am still hanging in there considering everything I have been through whilst I have been here.
Anyway, that will do for now I can’t really think of anything else to write at the moment unless I start abusing certain people for what they have done to me recently and that is something I don’t want to get into right now as it will piss me off even more.