It is that time of the year again. Always around this time, everything starts falling apart. And this year is no different. This is when I usually do something stupid or just stop giving a shit about everything and everyone.
I’m trying so hard to not make the same stupid choices I have done in previous years. But am I prepared to throw away the last 21+ months of hard work and struggles to return to an old life that will end up killing me very quickly. I know for a fact that I would not be able to handle living the way I used too. Also, I would need to sell up everything I have worked so hard to get for my forever home. Which could come through at any time now.
There has just been so much crap over the last few months that I am really struggling with and right now I also have some tough decisions to make that I don’t want to make. No matter the decision I make it is going to fuck me up that is something that I k is for sure. But I can’t really do anything about that until I have a chat with a particular person tomorrow. No matter the outcome I am going to come out of it as a broken person and so will the other person. I’m actually trying to get him around home today so we can talk.
Can we just skip right through to April please? It would for sure make my life easier.