Right now my depression is coming to the surface of everything I seem to do at the moment and my anxiety and panic attacks are beginning to occur more often than normal, even though I am hardly getting out of the unit. If I myself didn’t know better I would think I have myself back in a total form of “lockdown” again, but I don’t. I am just not getting out much at the moment due to health (the recent heart surgery and my left leg and both feet still) and transport reasons.
There isn’t anything that I can put my finger on at the moment that is triggering my depression again. Except for maybe the fact that my Doctor has just changed my bipolar dosage from 50mg x once daily to 75mg x 3 times daily. So to me, that is a massive increase and is the only thing that I can think of for the reasoning behind this. It is something I am going to have to raise with her when I speak to her early next week.
For right now there is nothing I can do but just try and hang in there. Mental Illnesses are the worst things to try and deal with, especially really on your own.