For over a month now I have been trying to write a blog post about everything that is going on. I get into it and then I can’t continue. I am hoping this won’t be another one of those posts. Right now I have over 20 posts sitting in a ‘draft‘ status – which I haven’t even finished writing. So I am going to at least try and get some information out in this post and then post it, so let’s get straight into it.
This has pretty much been going downhill and fast, however, my WBC count (Immune System) has been increasing, which is a damn good thing and about time, but that is because of the 5 different types of medications I am taking to boost my Immune system alone. Some of my other medication, however, decreases my WBC count, so it really is a catch 22 on that front. We just have to keep hoping for the best and hope I don’t get sick again anytime soon after my months of being infected with COVID-19 and that decreasing my immune system even further. Was just lucky it didn’t make me too sick to the point of hospital or I might not even be here writing this post now.
Well, lots going on here but nothing that I really want to go into at the moment. I will when the time is right, but for me, at the moment the time isn’t there.
I am still not getting out as much as I would like, I still have to be very careful of being around other people especially now that the 2nd cluster of COVID-19 has started in Victoria and is now slowly coming into New South Wales, right now it has majorly hit out Western Sydney and hasn’t got up as far as me at the moment so that is a good thing. But when it does, if it does, I have to put myself into self-isolation and keep away from people because next time I might not be so lucky.
The one thing I can say about the last 4 months I have really found out who my friends are. I have one friend that when he doesn’t hear from me for a couple of days drops me a Facebook message checking in on how things are going. And for me, that means a lot. Someone I thought was I friend hasn’t messaged me in months unless I message him first. So to me, that isn’t friendship and soon I believe that friendship will end altogether. It is not what I want to happen, but it is really at the stage now where the friendship can not be saved. I have said it before and I will say it again, friendship is NOT a one-way street.
For now, it is to continue on as normal for now … there is a lot more to fill you in on which I will start doing over the coming weeks as I start getting myself back into some form of routine and my depression and anxiety not constantly kicking me in the guts. This is the worst. There have even been days where all I have done is slept, got up for a bathroom run, take medication and have a drink and then back to bed. This has sometimes happened for a couple of days in a row. But I will pull myself out of it somehow when I can. It isn’t an easy thing to do as most people who suffer a mental illness would understand.
Anyway, that is enough for now and I promise I will post again very soon, might even to go post some of the drafts I was working on.