I am not really sure where to begin … there has been so much happening lately. Some good and some not so good. And this is both on the health and personal front. So let’s get into this post. But I really need to stop leaving it so long because then it ends up I have to make a big post to get people up to date.
There are several issues that I will be discussing and usually I don’t care about naming people, but in this case, I am going to hold names back. People will know who they are about, but I am not going to name them directly.
I think I will begin with the easy stuff first and that is the latest updates on my health and what is currently going on.
As everyone knows I see the vampire on a weekly basis, I swear they are trying, slowly, to drain all my blood out by blood tests … lol … Again, my white cells are playing up, as well is my ALT, LFT and GGTs (with the last 3 results all directly related to my liver). My immune system is still pretty messed up, so still if I come down with a cold, or the flu or anything similar my system will have trouble fighting it off. So I have to be careful, as always with this.
I am still having regular epileptic fits and issues with the left side of my heart. Still waiting to see another Neurologist later this month, also have to have further tests in relation to this later this week. I had several tests last week, but as a result of those, I need further this week. I really do not like being hooked up to all those monitors and machines and then going in and out of this tube-like machine, where I get so anxious. I have to make sure to take my anxiety medication at least 40 minutes prior to going into that machine or I know I will go into a panic attack.
Yes, my anxiety has been getting worse and I am still locking myself away at home most of the time and only going out to go to my appt.’s with my doctors, specialists and on a Friday morning to go the chemist and do my weekly shopping. However, this last Friday I couldn’t do my shopping. It was a rather bad day due to something I found out through a blog post only minutes before going into a counselling appt. – I couldn’t even finish that session, I only got about 10 minutes into it and she mentioned something and I just burst into tears and had to leave. My caseworker picked me up and dropped me back off at home, then I went off the grid for the rest of the day. Putting my phone on DND and silent and also putting the computer to sleep and turning the volume onto mute also. I am not going to go into that issue further, but I know the person that know about that and what happened afterwards which I am not going to discuss either, I do not feel there is a point to go into it further.
Business is now slowly starting to pick up at Hydra HQ which is good. But I need to be careful not to take on too much at once so I don’t burn myself out. I maybe have to look at using my sub-contractors if it comes to it. But everything is running fine for now. But it is something that I am aware of and monitoring. Not much else I can do on that one at the moment.
Considering it is 4.30am whilst writing this I am going to end this here and write again very soon … And no I am not going to sleep, I woke just around 2am and now can’t get back to sleep even though I am exhausted and tired as anything. But can’t get back to sleep.