Lots of Random Shit

So this post is basically going to go through a lot of different topics, probably get scattered at times also. But that is pretty much normal with me, as you would know.

So, let’s start with the afternoon of the 4th March at 3.40pm. I was just about to prepare to go for my normal afternoon nap, a little later than normal as had to get a few extra things done beforehand, and just as I began getting up from my chair at the desk my phone began ringing. It was Corey’s younger brother, I don’t usually hear much from him much, so I answered, if it had been anyone else I probably would have let it go to voicemail and dealt with it when I woke up, as I was bloody exhausted. Corey is a close friend that I have known for a little bit in a personal way, not related to a sexual relationship, just a really good friend. Trying to remember I think it has been about 10 years, it was whilst I was on the streets. He never was but he helped me out and we exchanged Facebook profiles and actually kept in contact, which was strange at first, but we became really good friends. Anyway, back to where I am headed with this. Corey had been found earlier that day deceased after he attempted to get help and was turned away from our Mental Health Department at the local hospital. I wish he would have called me. I would have spoken to him for hours and even got him the help he needed, but unfortunately, he didn’t. His funeral is next Tuesday. So it is going to be a bit of a stressful time for me going through losing another friend. It really wasn’t a phone call I was expecting, nor did I need it at the moment with everything else going on.

Right now I am supposed to be up at the hospital with my foot. But with being admitted there is no way they would allow me to leave to attend a funeral. So I am holding off going until Wednesday. And hopefully, I might see some improvement in my foot by then that I won’t have to go or it could be a lot worse as well. Who really knows. But there is no way I am going to miss this funeral. I missed one and it hurt like hell and I still haven’t forgiven myself for not being there, even though it wasn’t my fault, to me, it doesn’t matter. So it isn’t going to happen again to someone I cared about. There aren’t too many of these kinds of people left in my life anymore, and especially ones that are in my damn country or even close by, If I was living in say Texas (United States of America) it would be a completely different story.

The infection in my right foot at the moment is really bad. It has turned a reddish-purple colour right around the wound and expanding outwards maybe around 4cm right around. The hole into the wound had gotten a bit deeper and still leaking fluid. Apart from that, even with a dressing and sock on the smell now coming from the wound is so bad. I could usually only smell it a bit when I took the dressings off to re-do them. Now it literally soaks through the dressing and my sock to the point I can smell it. I am having to constantly spray smelly spray around and the smell usually is that bad it makes me a bit sick, I think this is why I can hardly eat at the moment. Hopefully can get it sorted soon though.

Have a little bit of $$$ coming in around the middle of next week. Which is basically all spent already. The major thing for this time is paying my VPS for the next 6 months in advance, then the next time I get my $$$ through (this is an extra amount every 6 months) I at least don’t have to worry about my websites going offline or the domains being cancelled because they weren’t renewed. I also have some plans to buy a couple of other things also. And maybe a surprise for someone else, but will have to wait and see on that one honestly for now.

Still constantly going through my hot and cold flushes all the damn time. Air con on, air con off, jumper on, jumper off, shirt on, shirt off, fan on, fan off, jeez I just can’t win with this anymore. It is an everyday thing and constant throughout the day no matter what I am doing.

Tomorrow I have a very early Doctors phone consult and later in the week, I have my NDIA Review, which is really needed so then I can start doing things I need to again. But for now, I need to get this review done and approved first, which hopefully will be done by the end of the week of the beginning of the week after as the plan review isn’t until 3pm on Wednesday. The last one only took 2 days for approval, so hopefully, this one will be the same. Then if all going well I can start doing things again and hopefully, the plan will be increased as well as they can see more support is needed then they thought the first time around and for more hours then a person sitting behind a desk can comprehend not knowing me or how things in my life really work. All they do is read the paperwork (if they even read it all and properly) and make a judgement call on what THEY think, not what the actual needs of the client are.

Anyway, I am beginning to get a bit drowsy now, it is just after 11pm and I did have meds and a sandwich about an hour ago so they are now kicking in a bit. But I doubt I will be able to sleep properly so might just dose off in the chair for a little. I will post more real soon. And the next post will be a video with me talking about some of the lyrics as the song has a bit of meaning. But more on that when I post it tomorrow.

About The Author

Zac is from the Central Coast of New South Wales in Australia. Zac runs his own online Web Design & Management business. In his spare time, he likes playing computer games, such as Need for Speed Most Wanted, Flight Simulator X, The Sims 4 and various others. Zac also enjoys spending time walking along the shoreline at the beach. Zac has a lot of health, both physical and mental which he is currently working on after a long history of abuse, hardship and decades being homeless. Zac continues to get by day by day and is moving forward with his life and is no longer letting anyone hold him back.