Right now everything is starting to become too much. This stupid diabetes is causing me nothing but problems. One of the major problems being diabetic is that it effects your feet and takes forever to heal. And that is exactly what is happening now. Diabetic Ulcers on both feet and also issues with my left big toe which is not getting any better even with 2 hospital stays of 11 days and another now (currently at 6 days and counting).
I just want to leave here and start getting on with life. But this is something that I can’t do until I get on top of things with my damn feet. They don’t want me to leave either until there is accommodation in place as it will just keep getting worse and worse until I possibly lose a foot. And I be buggered if I will even consider allowing them to do that.
Sometimes I have to wonder why me. It is just another thing that I need to deal with. Another thing that I don’t need to be dealing with as there is enough going on already, but I know this is the worse at the moment even though I don’t want to admit it and just leave. But I know I can’t do that either, no matter how much I want to.
The only question I really have is … Why?