Right now I have to wonder why I am even giving this a go. Everything I seem to do or try fails. Doesn’t matter what it is, nothing ever seems to work out for me, never has and seems never will.
As I approach the one month period of getting out of hospital and being in the bedsit on the Central Coast I continue to struggle with both health and personal life issues. I am just not really sure where to go next. Everything is a total mess. It’s like I jumped off a cliff and keep falling with no end in sight.
I want to be able to have a decent life with however long I have left. It’s not like I am going to be around forever, but after 41 years I deserve to have something decent happen and to live out the rest of my days in peace and the way I want to.
I have people in my life that just want to keep dragging me down, but that stops. As I did to something early hours of this morning. I am not going to be abused just because I won’t do what they want when they want.